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wOW ITS BEEN SO FUCKING LONG SINCE I BEEN ON THIS BITCH wHAT IS IT....2007? wELL OVER A DAMN YEAR I BEEN LOCKED UP. I'm suppose to be getting out real soon. I'm chillin with my favoritest person in the whole world. That would be my sister heather. I dont even know if anyone even dose this shit. I suppose the newn thing thats in is myspace or some shit. I am single. I'm interested in females more then niggas but i'm working on that. The reason im still in lock up is cuz i caught charges for sault and battery. But im in the process of working on my anger. I really been trying to focus on myself and get my shit together so i can come home to my sister i cant stand being away from. She means the world and much more to me. I wouldn't be nothing with out her. Well i guess i'll cut this short since her hard headed self is being impatient to check her lame my space
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[23 May 2006|11:43am] |
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Well..DAMN, Im living at my sisters now! Im doing pretty good. havent talked to ne1 all summer. Brianna is always wanting me by her! She missed me alot when i was away! That was the only reason i came back! Then when i left again i had to or i would of ruined somebodys life that i care so much about!! But now i can get the education i need and grow up!At least i have a AWESOME nieghbor that i can hang out with and talk to! Hes graduating this year actually! I'll most definaly will be at his party! I just wanted to say to my girl SAMANTHA that i havent talked to you in a while but i want you to remember how much i still and always will love you to death. I miss talking to you and being able to hang out with you! I mean i can but your just always busy and i feel like im in the way!! But no matter what your the only one that has been by my side through as much as i'v been through. And whats funny is, you've been by my side through thick and thin and thats one thing i needed through all this is a friend and im just glad it was you!
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So i just wanted to announce my last update and the last time anyone that was in my life, that this is the last time you will be hearing from me! I'm never EVER coming home and i basically lost EVERYTHING! Anthony now doesnt want nothing to do with me and that right there hurts more then anything hurts so bad it cant be explained!(but i do think my aunt debbie for that one) And i also left behind Brianna, Nathon,Julia, and Joey. I now cant watch each and everyone of them grow up! All my friends i have just left. But then again they will soon forget about me and where im at now i will make loads of friends! There is one thing im am proud to announce! Drugs and drinking for some reason do NOT interest me! I learned the hard way that their just a waste!And i advice everyone reading to not even bother with them! (for me anyways) I actually now cant even stand the smell of alcohol! But i do want to ask samantha to do my job of looking after Brinna for me and take care of her as i would sweetie! Babe i love you so much and you mean the world to me! And then heather...i know at this point you probably hate me but hun you and i have been through so much together and i cant say how sorry i am that i just left you like that! I will always love you and think about you day and night! I also know you like fuck that bitch but i cant control what you think or say! Just also continue to remember your a part of me that i will never in a life time forget!I LOVE YOU! Hope all works out for you and Brandon! I will say i am pretty far from home and at where i am we plan on moving out of state in a couple months! I know your thinking shes just saying that but think what you want but im just telling ya whats going on Believe what you want! LMAO!Where i am right now is so GREAT! I have way in the hell of alot more then i had where i used to live! i actually live with a family so you can stop thinking im sleeping with so many guys and so on. If you actually took a minute to get the know the real me you'd know im not like that! The house is HUGE and i even have my own room! I have so many nice cloths and so so so so much more! Its like living in dream land! And i even have the love,and respect i was always looking for! I couldnt ask for more!
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[22 Apr 2005|08:37am] |
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Do This Please...'
1.) one compliment
2.) one secret
3.) what you consider me as
4.) how old you are
5.) how long we've known each other
6.) one bad thing about me
7.) a hint as to who you are
I have to say i copyed this baby right off Cassie!! I LOVE YOU CASSIE!
Well..im going to this really awesome hotel with a sweet ass water park in it! I'll prolli be back wednesday night! I'll miss all the ones i love dearly! Sami..i hope to come back to something that happened great to you! This weekend i just hung around! Today i went bowling and i wrestled brandon!! Alright im going to go now! Oh, believe it or not im still $iNgLe!!
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[20 Apr 2005|08:38am] |
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Well... nothing has really happened that should interest you people! I finally like someone new and im just going to wait and see how it goes. We've hung out a couple of times and im hopeing its going to go well! TODAY IS 4-20!!! i cant wait! I actually think im suppose to be hanging out with my crush! I told him i liked him and i think he likes me also! I dont know though! Davids still in Floida and boy do i miss him!! My puppy almost died! It was tragic!! lol.. Seriously though she did! But now shes all better! Over the weekend i didnt do much except hang out with my sister and Brandon! Same with yesterday! We all have a blast together! Coffey Hailey are doing better so im happy for them! I really donr have any TRUE friends except Samantha,Cassie, and Kristen! I love you girls SOOO much you just dont even know! Lets see is there any new couples..Theres Kelly and Matt,and..well actually that would be it! Devon and Tye broke up! Nothing exiting has happened! To give any body a clue on who i like even if you dont care he dont go to this school but im sure with the big mouths at this school the like 2-3 people i told i know the specific person i told will fucking tell! DAMN why do people have to open thier mouth when someone tells them not to then they still choose to go off and say something!! Well bells about to ring so this bitch is out!
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[13 Apr 2005|04:54pm] |
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OMG!! I am so PIST! I just got done updating and i exited out of it!!ERR! So today i found out a whole bunch of bullshit containing Adam that just made me feel like complete SHIT!! I would like to think Jen,sami,Haily,Amy,Derek,and Mike danes for helping me get through the day! I just dont know what it is i do that chases them away!If you do could and would you please infrom me on it!! I just DONT trust guys nemore!:( My grades are a hell of alot better then last card marking so im EXTREMLY happy about that! I also want to wish Cassie and David the best of luck because as much as they dont admit it i know theres something between them two even if they dont see it!!! I DO!!!SAMI..keep up the great work with your future man!!!LOL!And oh..just for the record people out there I DONT LIKE KEVIN!! He is MY friend and nothing or no! will EVER change that! We've been friends since the beginning of the school year so people out there that dont respect that can BIT ME!!!(SORRY LIL PIST TODAY!!!)Yesterday i had a blast. As childish as it sounds i went to Chuckie-Cheese!Jen,Brianna,Scott(brother-on-law) and i all went!! FUN!Then when i got home is when the REAL fun began!Jen and i got back from Taco-Bell and had Broughten my Brianna back SOFT Shell Taco with NO lettec!!Well Jennifer and i are goin to go and find something to do so this bitch it out!!
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[12 Apr 2005|12:44pm] |
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Hmm...i'll just start off with yesterday when i had gotten SOOO pist at Adam. I think i over exagerated tho! Neways...we were walking from his house to go get Pack cuz he hadnt known to go to adams after school or some shit so then i left my back pack thinking we were going back. We were walking just fooling around and he said hit me. I was like what would you do if i really hit you(in his face). He was like i would dump you. I was like WOW that is shallow. HEs like i dont care if its shallow or not! Wether he was playing or not i DONT KNOW! Then he just left me while him and mike went to eat! Theres more to the story but easy to explain it over the computer. I just hung out with my sister and her boyfriend till around 10. Then i took a shower and to bed i went! It seems to me adam really dont like me but when we hang out my thought totally changes. Maybe we need to hang out. Our conversations over the phone and on the computer i HATE!! BUt then hes ALWAYS busy with something with baseball or he alreay made plans or some shit where we cant hang out!BUt who knows it just might be me being bitchy! Anyways.... My sami came back!!! I realized how much i miss US!!! I wish we had more time to spend together! Cassie..WEll like i keep saying i owe her ALOT of money! We really need to hang out so girl you need to call me! Matt and melisa borke up! Isnt that a bummer! But Matt..well realy cant sa what he is cuz i myself havent yet pinned pointed it! Colleen i wish you the best of luck with your new crush!! Hes different but you got what it takes!!OMG!!EVERYONE should of seen sheila!! SHes so BEAUTIFUL!!! David left! I called to tell him i hope he had a safe trip and all that B.S. and he wasnt home:( I left a message for once in my life. He prolli didnt get it! Kevin and i might hang out today.I love him to death as a friend and im always going to be here for him. Well briannas wanting me to watch a movie with her so please leave me some interesting comments and i love you all!!
YIKES....what a BREAK UP!!
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[10 Apr 2005|04:00pm] |
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FRIDAY- I went skating second session and hung out with Cassie and Keith and i cnt forget David because i now owe Cassie ALOT of money!LMAO..Then Saturday i spent the whole day with my cousins! I had a blast then and around 10 EVERYONE in my house hold and more went out for my brother-in-laws surprise party! Now sunday i'v just been chillin in my hot tub being lazy! Adam and i are doing pretty good. I just get pist when we dont hang out. My parents are leaving Tuesday!!WHOO-HOOI get to get outa school early a couple days! Oh, i HEARD Kelly and Kevin broke up! Isnt that a bummer! I actualy knew they were going to before they did! But i knew it wasn my place to say nething! Well..nothing really much to say so im going to go watch Cradle To The Grave with my brother and everyone. My house is CRAZY with as many people here.
ADAM AND DAWN
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[08 Apr 2005|09:36am] |
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Well nothing has happened that would involve exitment! I got 2 new puppys that i just fell so much in love with!! Adam and i are doing alright. I might be hanging out with Kevin today when he calls me when he gets home from school. Right now im at home watching my Brianna, and i was happy cuz i didnt have to go to school!:) I guess matt and melissa are doing good!:) i think its the funniest thing on how much i piss matt off!!! Then melissa had said matt and i were "flirting" what a dumb jealous bitch!! LMAO. I just want to say that Cassie and i are doing GREAT!! Boy do i love that girl to death. According to some people were the biggest HOT hoes in our school or some shit! LOL WEll at least i have Cassie with me. LMAO I LOVE YOU CASSIE!! Sami's in Flordia and i miss her already!:( I can not wait for my parents to go away for a whole week. Well Brianna's bugging so i gota bounce!
ADAM 3~21~05
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[04 Apr 2005|08:26am] |
Well not much of anything has happened latley. My break was alright. I had the best time when i was with Adam! Im going over to his house for like 5 minutes after school today. We hung out the other day for like all day. I had a blast then. Well from now on im not talking to Max,or D.C. They make me so mad. Well im bout to get going for now.
I LOVE ADAM!!
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[01 Apr 2005|06:13pm] |
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Well..today i got up around i beleive 9:45. Then Jen and i just sat around the house. Afterwards i had to clean my room and do my chore. That took me a while. Adam and i went to the mall.We then just went and got some pizza and went back to his house. We just watched T.V. Then came back to my house and now just goofing off. WOW it amazes me on how i can start feeling so much for him in such litte time. It scares me in a way. I just forget about everything when im with him:) Well hes bugging me to read this so he can just read some on what im feeling for him.
I LOVE ADAM!!!
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WEll.. nothing much has happened that must exite you,but i'll update just because im bored off my ass and colleen couldnt spend the night:(
SunDay woke up andof course had to clean the house since the realtives were coming over. Around 12:00 my favoritest cousin maggie came over and i spent like the whole day with her. I talked to adam here and there and then maggie and i took a nap. We then went to maggies and had dinner over there. Finally just went to spend the night at my brothers. Adam came over till about 12:00. I had fun but before he came over i went onthe 4 wheeler with my brothe and got covered from head to toe with mud. Then went and picked adam up and didnt know i was going to meet like his whole family and filt like i was STUPID!! Then just did whatever.
MonDay Like nothing happene. I got a slurpy from 7-11.But if i remember more i'll get back with you,
TuesDay I really didnt do to much of anything. I remember sami calling me and i was so happy. She came over and we went and saw The Pacifier. That movie was great. Then after that dropped her off and went over Josh's. Our doo's still didnt hook up. I stole his orange juice cuz i fought him over it. Then i just went home around i think 10:30.
WednesDay Well today i had to bomb the house and wasnt aloud in my own home for like 4 hours. I went to mcdonalds and spent most of the day with Brianna. Then had to come home do yard work:(I kinda got mad cuz adam never called me back and he said he just forgot but i'v been trying to get him to come over and he WAS sick but then today he felt so much better and was hanging out with pack but oh well i'll live.
EXCITING!!!
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Nothing much has happened latley.I'v been spending alot of time with Jennifer. Friday i went skating and then before second session went o adams and came back before it ended!I had fun with at his house. His nephew is so adorable. I got in to a fight with sami and alot of people are saying shes chaging and its not for the best!:( But i still love her! Cassie and i have been talking and i cant believe i wasted so much time fighting with her when i could of been having loads of fun with her the whole time!!She really is a GREAT person! Me and david have been talking alot! Im glad we havent been at each others throat. IM happy cassie and david have each other.Well im bout to go.
Dawn 3
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Adam 05
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[22 Mar 2005|08:19pm] |
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Well.. adam and i are going back out! We spilt up on sunday and he asked me back out so i said Hey, why not?Were doing alright. Matt and melissa are officaily going out but im not to worried about it. Today i went over samis house. Boy i miss our old times. I love that girl so much!I think im suppose to hang out with adam tommorow but im not sure! Everything else seems to be going just great! well not much to say so im bout to bounce.
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[19 Mar 2005|10:20pm] |
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OMG.. i just got back from the movies!! I had a pretty good time! D.C,Melissa.K, Luch, Mikey.C, Ryan, Kathleen, Mikey.D,Sami.S,Me,Stephen(GOD he was so fucking annoying)Jake(talked through out the whole damn thing)Adam, Max,Derek, and Mike.P were all went and saw The Ring Two. My sister and her boyfrriend went and saw it too. Adam asked me out and i just couldnt say no! I know i only like him a little bit but i just couldnt hurt his feelings. GOD!! i think i made a mistake. Then he said i love you and you know what i said?... NO YOU DONT!!!:( i feel so shity inside!! Im such a horrible person.. Oh well everyone already thinks that so i gues it dont make a difference.~*lmao*~I wonder how this is going to work out? I mean... i dont even think its going ot last that long1 YIKES!! I'll do something stupid and he'll dump me. YEA!!!well i gota go dround myself in self pitty so this bitch is bout to bounce!!
3/19/05 i like him...(a little)
I'd give it all away just for us to be friends again.
walking away isn't the worst part....its knowing that he wont come running after me that hurts the most.
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Well... latly has been something else! I know now that matt and i are officially over. But i'll live. Im only in 8th grade and i got my education in front of me and that right there will get further in life then ANYTHING!!The dance last night was pretty boring but im glad i started talking to Kristi.I love her soo much!!I have gotten close to some people and they've helped me through it. A guy is NEVER worth a girls tear no matter what! Im just going to stay low and let life work itself out. Other then that im doing great.
I want you to answer my 3?'s PLEASE!!
1. What kind of girl am i inside and out?
2. Do you love me,and if so describe the love you have for me..?..
3. Do I honestly deserve what i get put through?
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[15 Mar 2005|09:40am] |
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My god, i never thought someone like him could make me feel so much pain!!It hurts so bad and i dont know how to deal with it. Its like someone drilling a hole that burns and it just wont go away no matter what i think about or do!! It also hurts not knowing what i had done that was so horrible!!:( I guess im just not good enough for no1!Hopefully one day some1 will see the real side of me and will except ME for who i am!The the only thing i should be guilty for is loving him with all i had.Apparently i dont have much to offer, in other words i guess im saying i dont blame him.I knew it was just to good to last!He was my everything!I dont know what to do.I do still believe a friendship is the strongest thing,maybe just maybe that'll be the thing to keep my head high.It feels like someone is crushing my heart and after wards feeling no guilt and walking away spitting on it!! You know whats the worst of it all is?..Everything running through your head trying to figure out what you could have done so that it would of worked out!!And you want to know something else? It gets you NO where!!It just makes you worse!!
i STILL love him!!
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Well..nothing much has happened latly.Matt and i are doing just great!He was SOOO pist at his game Wedesday!:( Not only because of his game tho!But the other reason i'll just keep between Matt and i! Last weekend was pretty busy!This weekend i gota babysit saturday. Other then that i havent got a clue on what im gunna be doing! Seems to me im just getting along with everyone just fine. I think its best that way!Briannas going to be going to school today. She made me a flower the other day.My moms REALLY sick. i feel so bad.WEll nothing else to say so im bout to bounce.
I LOVE MATT!!!
Have i tought you anything valuable?If so what, when, and how?
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What Would You Do If:
.I died from natural causes:
.I said I liked you:
.I kissed you:
.I lived next door to you:
.I started smoking:
.I stole something:
.I was hospitalized:
.I ran away from home:
.Smacked you in the face:
.Said I didn't want to be friends anymore:
.Broke something of yours:
.I cried in front of you:
.Cried because of you:
Would You:
.Be my friend?:
.Keep a secret if I told you one?:
.Hold my hand?:
.Take a bullet for me?:
.Keep in touch?:
.Try and solve my problems?:
.Love me?:
.Date me?:
.Make fun of me?:
Have You Ever:
.Lied to make me feel better?:
.Wanted to kiss me?:
.Wanted to kill me?:
.Smiled thinking about me?:
.Broke my heart?:
.Kept something important from me?:
.Thought I was unbearably annoying?:
I LOVE MATT!!!
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Well im prolli going to write ALOT about my brianna in this update. Last night i spent alot of time with her.(But when dont i..?)She made me a flower thingy were you but the beads in it then you put it in the oven and bake it.Im going to put that in my locker along with the BEAUTIFUL picture she colored and made for me!Then she wanted to go to bed with me and watch SpongeBob and Patrick. We have watched the same one of the tape so many times we both knew the words of it by heart!!One of the episodes was that Patrick got mad cuz SpongeBob got an "Award" and he didnt.So then he got a jobat the Crusty Crab. It was Patricks job to answer the phone.So when someone called it was my part to say "Hello is this the Crusty Crab?"Then brianna's part was when Patrick yelled NO THIS IS PATRICK!! Brianna and i laughed so hard over that. I know im a loser but i love her so much.She's one person in my life that means so much to me.Theirs autallu only 2 people that i would move heaven and earth for but im not going to say the second person.But Brianna will AWAYZ be NUMBERONE!!!!
Well i guess Kevon likes Kelly now:(YIKES!!!but i guess you cant help who you like.Matt and i are doing great!!But bells about 2 ring!!
Ilovematt!!!
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